Wednesday, March 29, 2017

Being Neutral

Dentistry taught me many things.
Sorry if I bias towards Dentistry because I feel it. However, all courses teach us many things. :D

Everyday, I feel terrified when waking up from bed.
Thinking what's going on today.
What if I stumble in the middle of route?
What if my projects being rejected?
What if I will
Those are keep played when I wake from bed.

After a long time..
My awakening becomes aspiring.
Aspiring to be a good student by niat.
Day by day.
Even yesterday was a horrible day.
Which is full of rejection and disappointment.
That was made me crying endlessly.
Even my surrounding people are faster than me,
In doing our bread and butter.

I wanna keep crying.
Sigh in silent.

But good people make me to do something better.
Make me feel positive.
Keep smiling when facing hardship. (this smile is sooooo beautiful.)
Make me keep laugh normally. Haha
Make me tell the stories without hesitation.
Without worrying what's their thought of me.

One more thing.
I cant keep being sad throughout the time,
sad due to the failure 'coz
"Why I need to be a sad girl while your people getting through the hardship?"
I need to neutralize them,
like acid + base = neutral,
by being a happy person that will lift them up.
With saying this to them,
"Chin up, my dearest people. 
It's my time to cheer you up."

However, the most significant thing.
Allah gives us the happiness. 
Allah gives us the sadness.
To make us reflect all of this.
Either it is just the istidraj or nikmat.
Or Allah just wanna show us that He loves us. :D <3

Sunday, March 26, 2017


Ever since I was born
I counted the days for my first move
I remember, why I had to move
The machine in my mom’s heart and the big scar
In winter of 2010 at Daegu
The childish me used to measure the size of the world
The reason why we moved into a business
Was because of all the bad things people said, saying we follow money
So moving left many things with me
Whether I liked it or not, it changed a lot in my life
My life was about paying rent, I know
I lived with my pride put into the down payment
So I’m gonna move again
I’m gonna have a dream, a level higher than being an idol
When will I stop having to move again?
I hope it comes quickly

Let’s move
Goodbye to this place, that we grew attached to
Let’s move
Now to a higher place

While taking the last box out of the empty room
I looked back for a moment
Times we cried and laughed
Goodbye now

~ Written by SUGA for BTS - Move

I’m 20 (now) and it’s a good day
I’ve become a free body
But what is this, there’s nothing to it I’ve only become an adult
I’ve only become an adult, I’ve only become an adult
I’ve only become an average adult, The average adult is what I’ve become
An adult

~ BTS - Adult Child

All the underdogs in the world
A day may come when we lose
But it is not today
Today we fight!

No not today
Eventually, the flowers will fall
But no not today
That day is not today
No no not today
Not yet to die
too good day
No no not today
no no no not today


Run if you can’t fly
Today we will survive
Walk if you can’t run
Today we will survive
Crawl if you can’t walk
Gear up by crawling at least
Point a gun at! Aim! Fire!

Trust me who is by your side
Together we won’t die
I trust you who is by my side
Together we won’t die

~ BTS - Not Today

Sorry coz too much words. I'm angry with myself right now.
I want to move on.
From an ordinary girl to a matured woman.
I dont want to be a greedy woman who prevent her man from having his own time.

Saturday, March 25, 2017

ggAida: GV Black Classification

Siyes malam ni bosan giler. Haha. Scroll twitter, ternampak tweet seorang dentist ni. Pasal GV Black Classification ni.

Apa itu GV Black classification tu?
Before nak tau classification apakah itu.. Jom kenal GV Black dulu.
Dr. Greene Vardiman Black, or popular di kalangan dentist dengan nama GV Black dan Bapa Pergigian Moden (Father of Modern Dentistry). Beliau juga Father of Operative Dentistry (Operative Dentistry ni, senang kata, prosedur tampalan semua tu) :D
Banyak sumbangan beliau kepada dentistry. Antaranya:

  • Sebab fluorosis pada gigi
  • Ideal cavity preparations (How nak lubangkan gigi before tampal dll)
  • Foot-driven dental drill (control drill pakai kaki. Rasa macam tengah drive kereta or guna mesin jahit) XD
Even idea beliau "Extension for prevention" tu orang dah jarang pakai, tapi berjasa untuk amalgam usage.

Ok2. Takut melalut ke tempat lain.. Jom sambung ke GV Black Classification..

GV Black ada buat pengkelasan karies gigi (gigi berlubang) berdasarkan lokasi karies tu. Sampai sekarang orang pakai pengkelasan ni even ICDAS lagi detail.

Pengkelasan ni, ada 5 kelas:

Class I
Caries lesion at occlusal posterior tooth. (Atas gigi bahagian belakang: geraham, geraham kecil). Kat are pits and fissures. (kat permukaan gigi yang ada macam lembah)
Caries kat lingual part of anterior tooth pun duk dalam kelas ni.

Class II
Caries lesion at the proximal surface of posterior tooth. (celah2 gigi bahagian belakang)

Class III
Caries lesion at proximal surface (celah2) of anterior tooth (gigi depan: kacip, taring) WITHOUT affecting incisal part (tempat gigit makanan)

Class IV
Caries lesion at proximal surface (celah2) of anterior tooth (gigi depan) WITH affecting insical part

Class V
Caries lesion at cervical part of tooth (leher gigi // sempadan gigi dengan gusi)

Ok.. Done pasal GV Black ni. Nanti kita story-mory pasal ICDAS pulak. ICDAS ni apa benda pulak?
Pengkelasan karies gigi jugak. Tapi lagi detail.


Sunday, March 19, 2017

Charge My Heart 1

Dr Howard Farran tweeted about a female dental surgeon, Dr. Pamela Marzban on how her being successful in dentistry.

Her tips are:

You can't achieve success all by yourself
Kita tak boleh berjaya sorang-sorang. Need someone to support the vertebrae. Talk to our friends and collegues and learn their mistakes! Tak semua orang akan cerita pasal personal life diorang but try je. Haha.

Sound and strong leadership takes work, but is powerful
Erm.. I think I should join KPO (Kursus Pengurusan Organisasi) by SMF bulan Mei ni kat Melaka.

Giving back rewards yourself, as well as your community
Well, diri sendiri pun nak reward after berpenat lelah working on something. Begitu juga dengan masyarakat. Join the social works with friends. Bila buat dengan kawan, baru ada semangat nak berbakti untuk masyarakat. :D

Saturday, March 18, 2017

Dent Is Try: Semester 1

That's my feeling when Sem 1 came to the end..
Dah lama nak cerita but tak de masa nak taip lama-lama. Haha (Padahal masa habis duk dengar lagu BTS dia tu). <- Jangan ikut contoh ni!

Time sem 1, my thought was like these..

"Pergi kelas, balik kelas je ke?"
"Non stop 5 lectures??"
"SDL* manaaaaa... Tak wujud!"
"No life."
"Beratus topik kena cover untuk final.. I'm dead. "

Memang mengantuk betul la dalam lectures. Sebab tak jaga waktu tidur. Tidur lewat je kerja time sem 1 tu.

Rutin harian:

#1 Bangun awal. Setiap hari kerja ye. Setiap hari kelas start pukul 8. Haha. Praktis la bangun awal bagi sape yang berminat dengan program ni. **gelak jahat**

#2 Pukul 8, start lecture. Basic Medical Science and Oral Biology

List of Subjects dan pecahan dia:

Foundation of Medical and Oral Sciences
  • Anatomy
  • Physiology
  • Biochemistry
  • Microbiology
  • Pathology
  • Pharmacology
  • Oral Biology
Patient Care and Professional Development
Islam and Asian Civilization (TITAS)
English For Critical Academic Reading
Red Crescent (Bulan Sabit Merah Malaysia) *wajib ye. X leh pilih lain
Computer Essentials and Applications

Kalau tengok ni pun dah banyak, nanti baca post pasal sem 2 pulak. hahahha. #sistabah

#3 SDL, ikut nasib badan la. SDL tu Self-Directed Learning. Belajar sendiri la maksudnya. Tapi selalu disalahertikan as 'waktu makan'. XD Kalau ada, bersyukur sangat2. Kalau tak de, redha je la nak!

#4 Lunch time just for Zohor prayer. Kalau sempat, boleh lunch. Kalau tak sempat.. DinLunch je. Haha

#5 Kelas petang~ -> Zzzzzzzzz. Ikut la habis pukul berapa. Selalunya pukul 5 la.

#6 Balik!! And macam biasa la di kolej. Study ke.. Pi meeting ke. (Dik, join la Usrah ALIS. Kalau nak masuk ALIS, masuk As Syifa' which is Multimedia Team. Hahahah).. Sembang dengan kawan-kawan ke. :)

#7 Most heaven time, TIDUR.

Lupa pulak.. Sistem pembelajaran telah diintegrasikan. Means, bila belajar pasal darah,
Apa yang ada dalam darah?
Macam mana sel darah boleh terbentuk?
Macam mana sel darah tu mati?
Kalau darah tak cukup, badan buat apa?
Bakteria apa yang serang darah ni?
Ubat apa yang boleh cairkan darah?

Macam tu la integrated learning. Time lecture Pathology, lecturer boleh tanya tau pasal Anatomy, Physiology, Pharmacology.. Ha ha...

Plus, Preclinical Basic Medical Science(BMS) (2 tahun pertama) ada 9 modules (x psti modul lain macam mana)

  • General Module (GM)
  • Musculoskeletal (MSK)
  • Hematopoeitic and Lymphoid (H&L)

Maka.. kami gagahkan diri untuk ketiga-tiga modul ini. GM la paling luas dan banyak SLO (Specific Learning Outcomes).
Setiap kali habis modul.. ada Progress Test (PT). Jawab True or False. Dengar macam senang tapi.... Tak nak bagitau.. Tunggu korang rasa sendiri. Hahahha.

Bila final pulak..
Ada 3 papers

  • Pertama, macam PT. True and False. Tapi ada jugak 5 soalan yang jawab ABC je
  • Kedua, Short answer and essay. Uuuu. Takut......
  • Ketiga, OSPE. Duk dalam lab, and banyak stesen. Jawab soalan kat stesen tu. Best sebab gerak2. Tak best kalau tak dapat jawab dalam masa yang singkat tu.
Rasanya.. tu je kut. Haha. Tunggu cerita sem 2 pulak. XD Surely, lain giler dari cerita sem 1 yang pergi kelas, balik kelas ni. Haha

Nah gambar time sem 1 :D

Tiap hari kena lalu Fakulti Medic dan baru la sampai kat Dental Faculty

Explorace Medic + Dental

Hommies XD

Kalau gross tengok model gigi ni, gross lagi gigi betul Hahahaha

Class rep and BSMM punya patung

Final paper + sejukkkk

Annual Dinner

Menunggu awak la~
Location: Topaz Ward for Oral Maxillofacial patients

Dr Nobu, japanese :D

Sunday, February 19, 2017

Wings II

I hope we can be the wings of each other and fly higher and higher. We can't just fly with a single wing. ... Thank you for being the other wing.

(Min Yoongi, 2017)
- Wings Tour In Seoul -

Monday, January 16, 2017

Without A Heart

If I say that I'm in pain, I'm scared that I'll really be in pain
If I say that I'm sad, I'm scared that I will shed my tears
Why don't I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh...
But people ask me why I'm crying...

Everyday I cry, I smile, cry then smile again
What's wrong with me, why do I do this repeditely?
Can't differentiate between bottles of alcohol and meals
So far in my life, I never felt pain this excruciating
Absentmindedly, I write your name over and over on a piece of paper
In a day, the paper becomes black and I finally let the pen go
I long for you, I hold on to my cellphone and let it go
my eyes are filling up with tears again, this seperation between us..

(Ok.. Sorry ya Allah..  😭😭😭😭)

I'm without a heart, I don't have a heart
So I wouldn't be feeling pain
Everyday I talk to myself, and put myself under a spell
But even so, I keep shedding my tears

If I say that I'm in pain, I'm scared that I'll really be in pain
If I say that I'm sad, I'm scared that I will shed my tears
Why don't I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh...
But people ask me why I'm crying,
when I'm laughing like this...

I'm without a heart, I don't have a heart
Again today, I can see through your lies
My heart is in so much pain, I'm begging for your help
How can I smile in times like this?

If I say that I'm in pain, I'm scared that I'll really be in pain
If I say that I'm sad, I'm scared that I will shed my tears
Why don't I just laugh, just laugh, just laugh...
But people ask me why I'm crying,
when I'm laughing like this...

I'm without a heart, I can't be in pain
I'm without a heart, I can't be in pain
Let's just laugh, just laugh, just laugh
Please, please let's stop crying now...

*Covered by BTS 
*Original song sung by 8eight