Wednesday, June 21, 2017

I Can Feel It

Can’t see the end, the questions continue
I ask myself again and again
If I can endure through these things
Then as if it’s nothing, I say, why can’t I?
Actually, it’s been really hard
The fact that there’s not a single person
Who will listen to my secrets that I’ve been keeping makes me sad
This reality makes me cry

Can’t see the end
When I open my eyes in bed
I still haven’t come out of my gravity defying dream
Is it morning? Is it night? I don’t even know
As I wash away the haziness at the sink
But everything stays the same
I see myself in the mirror with several days worth of makeup
My skin is ruined and I feel like I lost my goal
The dark circles underneath just get deeper

Feels like I’m floating in space
I don’t know where to go
But the stars far away pull me
I Can Feel It, I Can Feel It
I feel like I can be a light

Can’t see the end
I ran all the way from the start without rest, but why
Where did my usual self go? What am I chasing after every day?
I pray every day that it won’t be a lie when I say I’m ok
But why are the expectations so high?
I wipe away the bursting tears
I think of my family and dream once again

Can’t see the end, leave me alone
Actually, I’m miserable, after I finish a packed schedule
Expectations from friends and family follow me into bed
I can’t even close my eyes and sleep
I forgot how to go for it all
Now I have a habit of avoiding the little things
Can’t see the end, typical words “have strength”
It’s not the same as before, why am I so desperate?

Feels like I’m floating in space
I don’t know where to go
But the stars far away pull me
I Can Feel It, I Can Feel It
I feel like I can be a light

Maybe what I want is over there at the end
Getting what I want will be harder than just determination
But I can’t be impatient anymore
If I’m lost again, I need to find it again

Feels like I’m floating in space
I don’t know where to go
But the stars far away pull me
I Can Feel It, I Can Feel It
I feel like I can be a light


by SEVENTEEN

Drift Away

Time is passing
I’m looking back at my days that felt so long
I didn’t know but they were really short
All the things that just passed
I miss them even more today
Beautiful memories that I can’t turn back

Time that’s like blood flowing from my wrists
Memories drift away, becoming a big ocean
What’s flowing in the past and present are the same
But I only have regret for the things I couldn’t hold on to
I guess I still have a long way to go to become an adult
Or maybe I don’t want to
Maybe I’m just whining
I can’t hold onto these unknown days so they keep drifting
I’m drifting with time, giving up my body

You’ve drifted far away
Because of the things that always just pass by
When you’re struggling, just lean on me
You’ve walked slowly and heavily
Now you’ve become a memory
Happiness and sadness
I want everything to come back
Is that wrong?

We’re drifting away, drifting away
We’re drifting away in time
We’re drifting away, drifting away
We’re drifting away in time
We’re drifting away, drifting away

If I turn around, will I see it?
So I keep bumping into the things in front of me
Only after I get bruised and hurt
I can’t help it

Out of the many words
The words “I miss you” make the memories so much clearer
But it drifts away again and the next thing comes
Naturally fitting myself to the present
In some memories there is pain or regret
In other places, there’s sadness and excuses
It smoothly drifts away but what remains
Is a good feeling

You’ve drifted far away
Because of the things that always just pass by
When you’re struggling, just lean on me
You’ve walked slowly and heavily
Now you’ve become a memory
Happiness and sadness
I want everything to come back
Is that wrong?

We’re drifting away, drifting away
We’re drifting away in time
We’re drifting away, drifting away
We’re drifting away in time
We’re drifting away, drifting away

I’m busy again today
Feeling like I can hold onto the past
Hoping that you’ll come back to me
It’s a dream-like hope
Everyone is busy today
Feeling like they can hold onto the past
Hoping that you’ll come back to me
It’s a dream-like hope


by SEVENTEEN

Saturday, May 6, 2017

Oh! My Hubby... Mr. Dentist


Storyboard 3.5/5
Jalan cerita agak cliche, kahwin kerana dijodohkan oleh parents. Ex masih mengejar cinta lama dia. Maybe due to the author is not in the dental field, me saying Congrats to her, Bunga Amani because she was trying to bring Dentist as main role. Haha. Daku sebagai dental student terasa terharu sebab finally ada jugak novel dedicated untuk dentist. XD Aku memang beli sebab nampak perkataan 'Dentist'. She mentioned about tooth extraction in funny way. The hero is so jealous towards his wife's ex sehinggakan dia nak cabut gigi lelaki tu. (Ok. Aku mengaku, aku pun pernah nak cabut gigi orang yang buat hal dengan aku XD I feel ya, Dr Megat Mizwar).


Walau bagaimanapun, aku baca je. Who know's the unexpected twist plot? At the end, this novel made me crying badly. We lost a lovely protagonist. Uwaaaa. Sis Bunga Amani, finally you made me crying.

Language 5/5
Just nice.

Must read? 4/5

Bacalah. Best untuk readers yang gemar membaca kisah perkahwinan yang complicated.

Thursday, April 13, 2017

Expect less, Hope more

Expect less on human. cuz everyone has flaws, nobody's perfect.

Hope more towards Allah, cuz Allah is the most perfect One. He will give what your hoping for (if you make Him as the Greatest One)


You.
Don't worry.
Nobody's perfect.
Me too.
I accept you as you accept me. :)

Wednesday, March 29, 2017

Being Neutral



Dentistry taught me many things.
Sorry if I bias towards Dentistry because I feel it. However, all courses teach us many things. :D

Everyday, I feel terrified when waking up from bed.
Thinking what's going on today.
What if I stumble in the middle of route?
What if my projects being rejected?
What if I will
Those are keep played when I wake from bed.

After a long time..
My awakening becomes aspiring.
Aspiring to be a good student by niat.
Day by day.
Even yesterday was a horrible day.
Which is full of rejection and disappointment.
That was made me crying endlessly.
Even my surrounding people are faster than me,
In doing our bread and butter.

I wanna keep crying.
Sigh in silent.

But good people make me to do something better.
Make me feel positive.
Keep smiling when facing hardship. (this smile is sooooo beautiful.)
Make me keep laugh normally. Haha
Make me tell the stories without hesitation.
Without worrying what's their thought of me.

One more thing.
I cant keep being sad throughout the time,
sad due to the failure 'coz
"Why I need to be a sad girl while your people getting through the hardship?"
I need to neutralize them,
like acid + base = neutral,
by being a happy person that will lift them up.
With saying this to them,
"Chin up, my dearest people. 
It's my time to cheer you up."

However, the most significant thing.
ALLAH.
Allah gives us the happiness. 
Allah gives us the sadness.
To make us reflect all of this.
Either it is just the istidraj or nikmat.
Or Allah just wanna show us that He loves us. :D <3

Sunday, March 26, 2017

Move

Ever since I was born
I counted the days for my first move
I remember, why I had to move
The machine in my mom’s heart and the big scar
In winter of 2010 at Daegu
The childish me used to measure the size of the world
The reason why we moved into a business
Was because of all the bad things people said, saying we follow money
So moving left many things with me
Whether I liked it or not, it changed a lot in my life
My life was about paying rent, I know
I lived with my pride put into the down payment
So I’m gonna move again
I’m gonna have a dream, a level higher than being an idol
When will I stop having to move again?
I hope it comes quickly

Let’s move
Goodbye to this place, that we grew attached to
Let’s move
Now to a higher place

While taking the last box out of the empty room
I looked back for a moment
Times we cried and laughed
Goodbye now

~ Written by SUGA for BTS - Move


I’m 20 (now) and it’s a good day
I’ve become a free body
But what is this, there’s nothing to it I’ve only become an adult
I’ve only become an adult, I’ve only become an adult
I’ve only become an average adult, The average adult is what I’ve become
An adult

~ BTS - Adult Child


All the underdogs in the world
A day may come when we lose
But it is not today
Today we fight!

No not today
Eventually, the flowers will fall
But no not today
That day is not today
No no not today
Not yet to die
too good day
No no not today
no no no not today

EXTRA + ORDINARY

Run if you can’t fly
Today we will survive
Walk if you can’t run
Today we will survive
Crawl if you can’t walk
Gear up by crawling at least
Point a gun at! Aim! Fire!

Trust me who is by your side
Together we won’t die
I trust you who is by my side
Together we won’t die

~ BTS - Not Today


Sorry coz too much words. I'm angry with myself right now.
I want to move on.
From an ordinary girl to a matured woman.
I dont want to be a greedy woman who prevent her man from having his own time.

Saturday, March 25, 2017

ggAida: GV Black Classification

Siyes malam ni bosan giler. Haha. Scroll twitter, ternampak tweet seorang dentist ni. Pasal GV Black Classification ni.

Apa itu GV Black classification tu?
Before nak tau classification apakah itu.. Jom kenal GV Black dulu.
Dr. Greene Vardiman Black, or popular di kalangan dentist dengan nama GV Black dan Bapa Pergigian Moden (Father of Modern Dentistry). Beliau juga Father of Operative Dentistry (Operative Dentistry ni, senang kata, prosedur tampalan semua tu) :D
Banyak sumbangan beliau kepada dentistry. Antaranya:

  • Sebab fluorosis pada gigi
  • Ideal cavity preparations (How nak lubangkan gigi before tampal dll)
  • Foot-driven dental drill (control drill pakai kaki. Rasa macam tengah drive kereta or guna mesin jahit) XD
Even idea beliau "Extension for prevention" tu orang dah jarang pakai, tapi berjasa untuk amalgam usage.

Ok2. Takut melalut ke tempat lain.. Jom sambung ke GV Black Classification..

GV Black ada buat pengkelasan karies gigi (gigi berlubang) berdasarkan lokasi karies tu. Sampai sekarang orang pakai pengkelasan ni even ICDAS lagi detail.

Pengkelasan ni, ada 5 kelas:



Class I
Caries lesion at occlusal posterior tooth. (Atas gigi bahagian belakang: geraham, geraham kecil). Kat are pits and fissures. (kat permukaan gigi yang ada macam lembah)
Caries kat lingual part of anterior tooth pun duk dalam kelas ni.

Class II
Caries lesion at the proximal surface of posterior tooth. (celah2 gigi bahagian belakang)

Class III
Caries lesion at proximal surface (celah2) of anterior tooth (gigi depan: kacip, taring) WITHOUT affecting incisal part (tempat gigit makanan)

Class IV
Caries lesion at proximal surface (celah2) of anterior tooth (gigi depan) WITH affecting insical part

Class V
Caries lesion at cervical part of tooth (leher gigi // sempadan gigi dengan gusi)


Ok.. Done pasal GV Black ni. Nanti kita story-mory pasal ICDAS pulak. ICDAS ni apa benda pulak?
Pengkelasan karies gigi jugak. Tapi lagi detail.

Kbye~